Time

Time...

I cant believe it has been two years since my last post and since then too many things have happened. I feel like i have aged more than the actual years that have passed. Love lost, drama, anger, resentment, and now searching for myself again.

Why does it seem that when we take two steps forward towards what we think is right, the universe somehow stops us on our 'destined path' to another route that we would have not necessarily took. Strange that what we think is what we want, is really not even close to what we deserve.

And during this journey of searching so much time is invested, so much emotion, dedication. Time wasted... hopefully not.

But for some reason it seems i cant seem to completely comprehend that at this age I'm back to searching for Mr. Almost Right. After 5 years of dedicating my life to someone who never had any intention of being my lifetime partner. I guess time is the best teacher after all.

It was during this 5 years that i learned to loose myself, and be completely absorbed into someone else. And time has taught me to hold on to my authentic self and learn to keep my individualism.

Some tough lessons learnt and time took me back and forward until i grasped what lessons i needed to learn in order to grow.

From now on I'm gonna keep my finger on the pulse, watch every minute, second that goes by and appreciate each moment.

Time....