When you think you have it all figured out, you discover that you are only beginning to understand what this life is all about. I have reached a point of monotonousness in my life and crave for a new energy, a new challenge, an awakening something that I can be excited about. I need to break free from the routine. Sometimes it feels as if I have achieved something, but when I really look, I'm still at the same spot. Nothing much has changed. I dream of my past and think of all the decisions I've made and wonder if my choices have led me to this stagnant place or is it the lack of me not making any decisions. But one side of me is glad to be where I am right now. After all the drama I have had over the last year, things have calmed down and I am glad to have some consistency. But I think I have arrived at a place where consistency and predictability have reached the same point and I need to start turning this wheel in the direction that makes me happy and excited.